A thought that appeared....

Well,
Next week is my 28th birthday....
I can say that all the years my birthday is as normal as usual day...

When I was a small child, I think when I was below 7 years old, parents and grandparents would always have a party for me... But really, I have zero memoy about that time, I only remembered when I saw the photos in albums...

When I was primary school and secondary school, I remember that my birthday usually was on school holidays, and I don't really have many friends that would remember my birthday or would wish me... just one or two... Family members also did not remember and usually I passed my birthday hoping that someone would give me some suprises...but nothing....

Well, during uni days, grandma was the one who would remember my birthday and buy presents for me... I can say that when I was in my tennage years, I was a girl who always showed tantrum to my family... Mum always scolded me and grandma dislikes me at a point of time (I feel).... The situation become better after I studied in uni and after working.... I know that I used to do something that hurt them... And now our relationship become better and they always praise me for being a filial and kind girl... Ya... I think it is a process that I went through.... Which makes me understand that family is the most important to me....

I don't really share much with my grandma or mum about what I had gone through so far in my life as I don't want them to make them worry about me.... I used to be a very dependent and low self-esteem person... And I really don't have friends who understand my feelings....

Today, I know that I improve alot as I did not stop trying....I don't want to be looked down by my own relatives... On that day when I started to realise that I should do something that will make my parents proud of me... Ya, becos of the strong feelings that rooted in my heart, I told myself, I can do it...

After so many years, after having a close bf.... I was touched that when he gave me some handmade birthday gifts on my birthday.... Other than that, friends' wishes were just more than enough....

This year, should be the same...when come to a cetain age... I feel that being alone is just more than enough...It is better to have family members around with me on that special day rather than spending time with friends... I miss my family alot alot when come to this day every year....Ya... of course I like surprise but I don't really demand for it.... Just take it easy....

When getting one year older, that meant my responsible will be more and people will expect you to be more mature... It is a thought before my birthday....

Life Before Death

It is a very 沉重的topic....
Well, write a blog about this topic as during the JC that day, my colleague gave a presentation about this...
One of the sentense that she said that keep flashing in my mind...
"We are just one day nearer to our expiry date"....
Yes... You can choose to have a better life before death...
It is always a topic that nobody wants to talk further...
Especially when you have old people in your family...

Everyone will die one day...
And we will not know when is the day for us...
So, before that, we should have plans and do whatever we think we should do....

Found this website, you can take a look if you want to...
http://www.lifebeforedeath.com/thelastword/index.shtml

After the talk,
I started to find the meaning in my life...actually all the while I am searching and exploring the real meaning of life...
I think it is time to write down what I want to do before death...
At least, make myself to fulfil my own dreams...
Maybe in the coming blog I will share...

Remember, live with no regrets....